One year ago...

One year ago today I fell in love with the man who is now my husband. He had a mohawk then, so I guess it's true that love is blind. Since then my life had changed pretty dramatically, I have, in the past year, left a company with whom I had been employed for 13 years, got married, and, most importantly met the other man in my life, Samwise Wilder Klein- Morehead. I would not change this past year for the world, even at 2 in the morning when I have finally closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep and Sam wakes up and wants to be fed, or, like yesterday, when putting Sam down for even a minute caused such screaming that I had to literally make pralines with one hand, and did not eat or go to the bathroom all day.
I love my life!!
Tomorrow we are headed down to Orleans for Christmas. I have 3 weeks worth of crossword puzzles saved up, and I am going to finally finish "Lonesome Dove." The pralines I am bringing are a little gooshy, but, again, in my defense, I made them one handed. The toffee and the fudge turned out ok, though.
Then Friday I get to see my mom again, Nadine and David in January, and hopefully Mandi in February. Getting to spend a whole week with Jeff's family is awesome, but it makes me miss my own. Hopefully my dad can get out before we move to Orleans.
So, Happy Holidays everyone! I hear my little baby waking up and I have just enough time to run to the bathroom before the crying starts!!

Thwarted Plans!!

Pralines were at the top of my agenda today, but I have read too many warnings about making candy on rainy days, and pecans are too expensive to take a chance with if the candy does not set. Already my toffee is a little shady because of the candy thermometer incident, so I don't want to take any more chances. I am just going to wait for my butter to soften and start making cookies, even though it might still be a little too soon for that, as well. maybe I'll just make the dough for now?
Tonight the Blazers are going to try to make it 9 in a row. I have faith!! Brian and I are going to go to the A&L, site of our first game together, to watch the end of it, because Jeff went out for a little bit last night. Oh, how I can't wait to go out together!
Anyway, I thought I could write more but someone is a little fussy.

My beautiful sister Mandi with Sam. We wish she would come visit again!!

Be Prepared!!

I was just halfway into making almond roca, about to stick my candy thermometer into the pot filled with bubbling butter and sugar, when I noticed my candy thermometer was broken. Argh! I removed the thermometer part from the glass and marked where 300 degrees should be, but when the candy reached the mark it did not look right so I let it go for 3 more minutes. It is also raining out, so the conditions were already not optimal for candy making. Sometimes i am so hasty! But i really wanted to get cracking on my candy making so it will all be ready for this weekend. Hopefully it will turn out ok, but I am sure even if it does not set it will still be delicious as something, and someone will eat it, maybe over ice cream. I have faith, though.
Tomorrow hopefully it wont be raining and I can go get a new thermometer and make pralines and fudge. Mom- if you are reading this, yes, I will save some for you, and I specifically made the toffee with milk chocolate just for you!!
Survivor- so satisfying. This is the first time in 9 seasons that I would have been genuinely happy with whomever in the final 3 had won. For the record, though, the final 3 is stupid and they should go back to two. Next season- fans versus favorites!! Awesome!! Why didn't I apply? Oh yes- because i was pregnant, fat and out of shape. Still, I'm super excited and I can't wait to see who comes back. I hope Peih Gee comes back. I was kind of sad when she got voted off!!
Project Runway- Poor Jack! I hope he is ok. I also hope the next challenge is more interesting then the last 3 have been. No one wants to see people design men's clothes, or clothes for real people. Or from old clothes. Wheres the Haute Couture, Heidi?
Jeff, Sam and I went up to Seattle for the day on Sunday to meet Sam's big brother Noah for Noah's eighth birthday. Sam loves being in the car! And I think Noah and Sam will end up getting along very well.
Jeff and I watched the worst movie in the world on Sunday, "Duets", with Huey Lewis and Gwyneth Paltrow. It was my fault because I had seen it before and could not believe it could be as awful as I remembered it. It was way worse. I thought it would be charming because it was about Karaoke, but there were so many things wrong with it that I don't even have the energy to complain. It did not ruin our lovely weekend.
And- Holla!! The Blazers have won 6in a row. Can they win number 7 tonight!! I believe!!!

My, what a busy week...

Well, not really. I just got out a little more than usual. Tuesday night I left Jeff home with the kid and Brian went out so I could cut loose, or at least see if I remembered how. We went to a cheap divey taco place for dinner and I got my margarita on, then we went to Tennessee Reds so I could see my friend Sara, who owns the bar and was bartending that night. I got to see my friend Justin, aka "The Wolfe" as well, and we sang some songs, which was awesome. For the first time a crowd really appreciated our version of "Candy", and I appreciated 2 vodka tonics. Alas, I looked at the clock every 10 minutes missing my husband and child, and, while it was great to be out, I felt sort of guilty for having a good time when I knew Jeff was at home getting puked on. I also knew that I would have to be up all night with Sam, so that curtailed my drinking a bit.
Today I met with my friends Jen and Autumn for lunch. It was mine and Sam's first solo trip in the car, and I did ok. Sam slept the whole way, but it was weird not being able to look at him. He was great during lunch, he slept in his sling the whole time and I did not spill anything on him. It's always great to see Jen, who is super fun to hang out with and always knows good gossip, and seeing Autumn was a treat, it had been more than a year since we had spoken and it was good to catch up.
Sam and I had a good time cruising around Target after lunch, stocking up on baby things and a birthday card for Noah.
Tomorrow is breakfast with Molly, Henry, Violet and Lisa. Sam and I have such a social calender all of a sudden. It will be interesting to have 3 infants at one table tomorrow!!
I would write more but I am typing with one hand and holding a pacifier in Sam's mouth with the other.

Why can't every day be like Sunday?

I love the weekends! They just go so fast. I guess I just will never take for granted how much I enjoy hanging out with my husband. We don't really even do anything, just relax, but I love having him around and seeing him with Sam. Sunday we took Samwise to the Paradox for breakfast. He was great, and then as we were leaving he got to see his first snow. Then cousin Pam was an angel and sat with him while Jeff and I went to see "The Golden Compass." I was pretty enchanted with the look of the movie, the set design and costumes were gorgeous, and the effects were wonderful, but I felt it was a little slow. And I missed my baby!! I checked my phone every 10 minutes to make sure no one had called. Then when we got home I went grocery shopping all by myself. It felt kind of weird to be alone, I am used to having my little sidekick around me at all times! I wonder how I'll do tomorrow when Brian and I go out to dinner. Jeff will be with him, so it will be ok.
I remember what we did Saturday night! We had dvr'd "Mr.Mom." It had been forever since either of us had seen it and it was still pretty funny. What ever happened to Micheal Keaton, I wonder?
This week brings us the end of "Survivor." I will try to have the strength to go on.

Watching Samwise

Sorry, I did not do much today other that watch Samwise make faces as he slept. He is better that TV. And getting more beautiful every day. And also starting to look a bit like Jeff, I think. He found his fingers and I love to watch him suck his thumb. Hopefully he wont suck it as long as his mommy did. Or his Beebee for that matter. His hair is starting to lighten in color, and I think its going to be wavy.
Sam had a projectile vomiting episode that was scary and hilarious at the same time. Poor daddy was the target. It did not seem to bother Sam too much, but daddy was soaked!! Sam got me back by peeing all over me today. he really has range. I guess I will start using the peepee teepees.
I noticed the other day that I now refer to myself in the 3rd person.
Denver and the Mile High Orchestra better not make it through another round of "Next American Band" tonight. I will be furious
On Survivor last night it was "family" episode. I cried the minute the first family member came out. Gets me every time. Who thinks Todd was faking about his sisters miscarriage? I hope he was not. It was a clever ploy once, but tacky now. I think he will get voted off next week, it would be super cool to have an all girl final 4 but I really did like Todd, and Courtney and Denise really don't deserve to win. GO AMANDA!!
I think the guy with HIV is going to have to leave Project Runway next week. That's sad. He was a good designer. Good luck, Jack!
Happy weekend, everyone!!
By the way, I have been getting back in to my myspace. I recently found a few friends from when I lived in Ventura that I totally forgot about. I can't wait to hear back from them and see how they are doing. Also, one of them, Ben, who used to be one of my Shift Supervisors at the Port Hueneme Starbucks, died in a car crash. He was a wonderful man and I will miss him. Rest in peace, Ben.

What we do all day

What Sam and I do all day is hang out. We were a little stir crazy today, and the weather was amenable, so we took a walk outside, but mommy is usually so tired from being up all night that we hang out on the blue chair and doze and watch daytime television. We love Martha Stewart and think Rachael Ray is super annoying.
We have fun things coming up, though!! Saturday Jeff and I are going to get new phones; I am because I hate my phone, it won't hold a charge and my stupid Sprint contract is up, and Jeff because he got water on his keypad and can't dial 1,4 or 7, and can't send texts, which, before me would have been no great tragedy but is now a big deal.
Also, since Samwise has been so good on his previous outings and in his sling we are going to try to go out for breakfast on Sunday morning. We miss that tradition!!
Next week we are going to Seattle for the day for Noah's 8th birthday, and to introduce Samwise to his step brother before we all have to make a 9 hour car trip together.
Then the week after that is Christmas in Orleans already! I am so excited, I bet it is so beautiful there in December, and I am so looking forward to spending time with family.
The weekend after that is New Years, and my mom is coming back up, I can't wait, she is great company, and so helpful, and Jeff and I are looking forward to going out together. We will have been together for a year on Dec. 21st. Ha ha.
It seemed to me that I was pregnant FOREVER. Time just crawled by until my due date. Sam turned 2 weeks old last Tuesday, and I could have sworn he was just born. Maybe its because I am so excited for the holidays, but time seems to be flying by.
We lit the Hanukkah candles with Aunt Nadine on Tuesday, and had the traditional Jewish meal of pizza for dinner, but the next day we had latkes for lunch, and decided that they were in fact a much better brunch option then dinner option.
I am very excited because all the clothes that have not fit on me in forever are now loose!! Maybe that is because I can't put Samwise down for long enough to eat!!

Where's our Blazers Jersey?

Grandpop Steve sent us this Philadelphia Eagles outfit!! Its a little to big for me but I love it anyway! Mommy wants to know if this means that she has to watch Football, cause it will never happen. Basketball is our game!!

We will miss Nadine!!

auntie Nadine came to visit for a few days!! I slept on her for 2 nights in a row and mommy got to sleep for hours at a time!! She was such good company, and we cant wait till she comes back!!

Talk of circadian rythms

On Saturday night I got 6 hours of sleep in a row! This is due to the sad fact that, despite all the supplements I have been taking, pumping I have been doing and the specialists I have been seeing, my breast milk has refused to come in and we have switched to bottle feeding. Usually I wake up all night because Jeff has to work in the mornings, but no work on Sunday so he was able to help me out with the feedings. I woke up super refreshed and more high spirited then I have been in a while. Sunday was a perfect day. We woke up at 10 (!!!!!) and then Jeff went out and got breakfast. I can drink coffee now, so I had two cups (which, along with my child, kept me up until 4 am last night).
While Jeff was out I put on the digital music channel, hoping to expose Sam to some classical music, but then we both decided that we much preferred the "retroactive" channel. Sam and I had a good time discussing the merits of the Replacements, and talking about how "Up" was a really under- appreciated album, but every REM album after that had disappointed us. We were able to learn about INXS, Depeche Mode, Souxie and the Banshees, and the Cure. We even shared trivia with daddy when he got home - that Murry Head of "One Night in Bangkok" fame recorded as Judas in "Jesus Christ Superstar."
Today we are going to tackle the riot grrls and we have big plans to dance around the kitchen to Le Tigre and Gossip.
Sam stayed awake and alert most of Sunday, so we were able to really enjoy him. We thought that would mean he would sleep well through the night, but, sadly that was not the case.
Nadine is coming to visit tonight, and stay till Wednesday, and she wants to stay up all night with Sam. Can I get a big "Hell Yeah!!" I have not slept next to my husband for a long time.
Isn't it funny, new mothers, how a shower feels like a months vacation?
Hopefully my friends Molly and Lisa will come and visit me this week as well. They both have cute new babies, too.
A year ago this week I was getting ready to go to the beach with my best friend to drink alot and sing Karaoke in a dive bar and drink some more and sit in the hot tub. Funny.
I told Jeff he could go out on Tuesday to shake his sillies out, if I could go out next week. Its a shame we cant go out together but I'll take what I can get, and what I can get is an Ocean full of Sushi and a beer as big as my head with Brian. My mom is going to come up for New Years, and I am so excited to put on a dress and makeup, and, lets be honest, a bra, and go out and see some friends and sing a song!!!